As we seek light, we will feel light

art by Paige Payne

Sorry it’s been a bit quiet over here—I had a sweet baby boy last week!

It has been a sacred time for me. It’s also a time when I’m highly sensitive and have to remember to be gentle on myself and give myself time to heal.

I was inspired as I read the story of Daniel this week. He was in captivity and given wine and meat to eat daily. Not wanting to defile himself, he asked the eunuchs who watched over him if he could have water and grains instead.

After ten days, his countenance was brighter than the other children. (Daniel 1:15)

It struck me that in a time of crisis, Daniel focused on what he consumed.

And I think this applies to a lot more than food. I’m actually writing this in the early morning hours after nursing my son. I realized as I sat here that I felt awful. I tried to figure out why.

I realized, instead of listening to my audiobook or reading the scriptures, I had decided to scroll Instagram for the 40 minutes I nursed. So now, my mind was playing the oh so fun 4 am comparison game. I was thinking of all the things in my life that didn’t quite measure up to the little boxes that I scrolled past.

It was then that I made the connection with Daniel. What am I choosing to consume? Do I have the faith to change things in my life so my countenance can shine brighter?

I was reminded of a quote from a documentary on the effects of social media—it said “If you aren’t paying for a product, then you are the product.”

But as I prayed for peace, those words came back to me. “If you aren’t paying for the product, then you are the product.”

They apply to Grace as well.

A gift freely given—

The product being us.

Truly, we are His work and Glory.

As we seek Him, we will find peace.

As we seek light, we will feel light.


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